Ba Ba Baby, You just Ain't Seen Nothin' Yet.

Okay, so this app is already dangerous. Lately, I've developed a case of the insomnia's... I call it my dear friend stress.

I am reluctant to say this, but in all earnest I am always amazed by my writing skills when I go back and read past blogs. No big surprise to myself, but it saddens me I only seem to tap into my creative side when there is large quantities of stress in my life.

I'm breaking the mold fellow bloggers, my thumbs are the gateway to my over active mind. And it makes sense I might be a tad more eloquent through writing down thoughts, I tend to think as I speak, and should probably look into a filter, although at 26 it's hard to teach me new tricks. I often wonder of being outspoken is detrimental... Hah, but OF COURSE it is... Oops.

Gypsy's seem to be a trend in my blogs, weird, since the only association I have with them are my ancestors, Disney movies, and that God Awful show on TLC. Strange.

Oh and by the slight chance that anyone actually does read my blog. I should go ahead and let you know, I no longer work on the cruise ship. Sorry to have left y'all hanging on the edge of your seat for over a year. In fact I have been back from Hawaii for a year now, and that bullshit I mentioned in a previous blog about being "normal" and the "real world"... My bad. Seriously, for Pete Sake you'd think I could pick up where I want and ease into things... Hocus Pocus I say. I have had one, two, four and half jobs in one year. Anddd I've pretty much hated them all. I'm broke, I live in an old farm house with a guy who I unwillingly share a bathroom with, (at least his GF would clean the house- they broke up) have student loan debt from college, that I haven't attended in five years, who if I don't pay on the hour... Dock my credit score. Oh and let's not forget the guy I live with is my on again off again boyfriend. Oh good, so this is the American Dream, goody. Don't even get me started on my exquisite family!

So in an unfortunate series of annoyingly irritating events, I started a new job, then lost both jobs. So I'm unemployed. Honest to god train wreck I swear. For three solid days I have been scouring google, Craig's List, Indeed, monster, city websites, staffing agencies, Texas workforce commission, and the friggin paper for SOME job NOT in Food & Beverage, Hospitality or Hotels that will compensate me for roughly $16-20 an hour. My friends, not a chance in hell.

My question is at 26, with no degree and a shit load, yes, I said it. Shit load of customer service and guest experience training, what the hell job am I supposed to find slash be qualified for?! This resume crap is out of hand too, do you KNOW how long winded I am, and just because I didn't complete coursework in public relations, doesn't mean I don't know how the fuck to do it. I mean SERIOUSLY doesn't anyone take a chance now a day. Live a little, take a bet on the loose cannon, I guarantee I'm good for it! I know what I'm capable of, It's not like I'm applying for CEO jobs. *deep breath* I seriously under estimate the citizens in our society though, I've seen what the are and aren't capable of for about ten years now. FACT: most people in the general public are well I'll let you fill in that blank.

All I'm really looking for out of a career is to help and serve other people. Gosh dang it, of I'm not just enthralled with humanity. Sad thing is I don't want to be a doctor, lawyer, teacher or most common jobs that come to mind. I like planning events, and guest speakers, being the woman in charge, motivating others to find their quirk and make it reality. I love to entertain, uplift and encourage. I want to make the world a better place by using my skill set, my humor, my love, by being me. Not who society and people tell me I should be and should do and should wear and and and. BORING. I've got a gift and so help me God this big ole world is gonna see it!

Boom.