Where you invest your love you invest your life.

An interesting course of events has led to me this exact moment. These moments, as I like to call them ah ha moments are always ridiculously insightful. So here goes...

Awake my soul-I'll always be unsatisfied- if this is all I need why do I want more- and now my heart stumbles on things I don't know- my weakness I feel I must finally show-you got a gypsy soul to blame and you were born for leavin- take all the courage you have left- you know that you have seen this all before- it's like I know I know where I need to be but I just can't figure out...

Do you think it's coincidence that the lines from a few of my favorite songs i was listening to effortlessly flow together to spell out perfectly what I feel??? Or is that my brain telling my soul to dig deep and figure it out?

I want to feel alive again and not so dead inside. I go through the motions, but I want to feel again!!! I want to remember the days that I truly knew what it was to have the sand between my toes and the complete feeling of free! I fondly reminisce through music, some stories I read and faces I see on tv.

I moved back to Texas because I thought it was time to grow up and get serious. Honestly what does that mean? Instead of everyone telling me how/ what/ when/ where to do it- why doesn't anyone ask me what I want and how I'm going to achieve it.

I'm no different than anyone else with dreams and desires. Mine are just different, innovative, unconventional and well, out there. They involve all types and kinds of people, making a difference in the world, a new spin on an oldie but goodie.

I want to be passionate about something again. Challenged, mesmerized, completely caught up and swept away with my work.

I've probably touched on it before but as every day passes there is a feeling in my gut, so deep inside me, that I am bound for something so much greater than I know- it's downright scary. It's scary because I live in fear I will never find out what that is.

In fact, I almost didn't get to find out. I whole heartedly feel in the very depths of my soul that between the accident and getting fired in result, that this is my moment, the climax, my big ah ha moment to figure out exactly what my purpose in this life is.

And by god I'm going to do it. It's really that simple. I've lived my early adult life footloose and fancy free not giving a damn about anything but me and how much fun I can have.

I'm scared, but excited- the unknown and the potential and how ready I am to show this world who I am and what I have to offer.

I leave you with this-

Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them.

William Shakespeare